Dream on

One part of my job that I love is thinking. I love complex problems with lots of solutions. When I have to think deeply on some problem I sort of zen out into the possibilities, arrive at a conclusion and then spend the next few months doing boring stuff (implementation).

I also like investigating problems for fairly much the same reasons. Collecting data, playing with it and then convincing other to act on it. Then the tedious bit - implementing the outcome.

I never seem to be able to get a job where I get the idea, work it to release of funds then lay it of on some one and move on. I always end up running the job to its bitter end.

I like writing as well. Either just rambling (like now) or pointed, considered and dry technical stuff complete with pages of calculations – you should read some of the crap I have written – oh, wait you have…

Anyhow, the bottom line is that most of the work I do is painful for me. Yes I am very lucky, good wage, short hours (relative), get to stay in this town, bla bla bla. But if I could find a job where I can kick back and dream up stuff all day I would be happy (for a while at least).

I have dreamt of doing some brain dead job but eventually I come to then same conclusion. I would hate it. Sure I could day dream all day but the pay would be shit, and I would be resentful of my boss.

I am not political enough (bullshitability factor 0) to climb the corporate ladder. And in I don’t like greasing people.

I don’t think I’ll ever know what I want to be when I grow up.

The only thing that sort of fits is to be super rich thus having enough time to indulge my hobbies and interests. The only problem is the entry barrier to such a position is beyond my capability. Damn. I guess I am stuck being an engineer for the foreseeable future.

It is the only job for me, really. I just wish there was more of the dreaming/scheming part in the job description…..